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[23 May 2009|03:01am] |
Its quite alright.
it quite alight
with me.
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[20 Mar 2009|11:07am] |
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sugery went off perfectly. i am in like no pain and the liing is very annoying. thats about it
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[24 Jan 2009|08:43pm] |
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i think im going to fake my own death
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[20 Jan 2009|09:58am] |
faced with a $15,000 default on two loans.
i have rent. untilites. a current car loan, insurance.
i dont even know if im going to be able to live on my own anymore. because im not getting crazy hours and neither is anyone else at work. im a tad worried but what will be will be i guess. i just hope with my given situation i will have options because i DO NOT want to live with my parents. EVER.
im just focusing on a handful of things right now because im no longer interesed in certain aspects of my life anymore, i am doing a good job getting out of routine and doing more different things in different places. im actually really happy about that.
well see what happens. :/
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[24 Dec 2008|10:00am] |
why am i at work on xmas eve ?
i must be bored of im on the el-gay at work.
I had an appointment with my therapist last night.
i told him i was depressed. and that i am sleeping like waaaaay too much.
he decided to change my meds...but as i kept talking he changed his mind
he asked me if im depressed when at work
i said no, im happy at work, i love my job and i have no problems at work socially. customers love me.
he said if thats the case i am not depressed
he asked me if when i go out i feel as if its t he "same old thing'
i said YES.
i am tired of hardcore shows as much as i love them
i am tired of club hell-ol cuz its fuggin lame.
i am tired of the majority of people i grew up with
im not quitting drinking but i never have/never will drink the amount of alcohol my peers do
and as for hard drugs ? i never did/will.
im sick of being surrounded by that shit
he adivised me that at 22 i am at "the point" where one decides its time to change once rountine again.
so my new years resolutions are
---- Payoff credit cards/paypal.
-----begin a new routine, find new places to hangout, and make more friends. maybe meet someone in the proceses ??
-----find guitarists for my new band, even though i beleive that this is regressing and contrdicitory to the whole get out of my routine thing.
----i was adivised however just because i want to find new things to do i dont have to completely abandon the things im allready into, i will appreciate them more if I dont take them for granted by being around all the time.
I decided that Club Hell should also change its name to Club Church, because the majority of its friday nigth inhabitants beleive its manditory to attend at all costs every friday, regardless of how they get there or who they go with.
My final thoughts. It time to move on. all of us.
Love You All.
Well, almost all of you.
xoxo
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[20 Nov 2008|02:51am] |
11/21 - Paper @ harpers ferry- boston, ma
11/22 OUTBREAK !/DBD/AGNOSTIC FRONT/ RNRHS @ hell, providence, ri
11/23 chest piece session1-indellible ink, fall river ma
11/28- Cut Your Losses/As We Speak - torrington CT
11/29 OTI/FTF last show ever - fall river, ma
12/2-3 AP Auto Transmission class- jamesburg NJ
yeah im busy
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[04 Oct 2008|05:00pm] |
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your head will roll.
if it hasnt allready.
dont come back.
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[10 Sep 2008|12:06am] |
so andrea lost a roomate up in allston..
so i went and checked the place out.
you could throw a rock off the porch and hit Harpers Ferry/Blanchards Liquors.
its also a block from where jessie and matt live.
and seconds from eric
and seconds from alot of places.
its $766/mo though.
which would mean some serious re-financing on my part.
bye bye buick. for real this time.
and eventially, bye bye SHO in favor or a more economical smaller car i.e. another Hyundai.
i REALLY hope i get a job up there. i got a few calls and ive been playing phone tag with a body shop in allston, tom o brien hyundai in quincy, and a porche dealer out in rockland, off rt 3, which i could make the commute if they made it worth my wild.
i also put a call in to a nursing home looking for a maintnece guy.
trying my best.
escaping the riv is harder and far more expensive than i thought.
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[09 Sep 2008|08:12pm] |
this week has been very difficult.
im really really upset and aggravated with some things that are going on at work.
im not a suck up and im not a kiss ass thus i go nowhere.
im sick of doing oil changes day in and day out.
im sick of people underesimating me.
its not cool.
i need to put a resume together.
im hoping ill hear back from the hyundai in boston this week.
i think CT is out of the picture, its too far away from my parents, and my sick dad.
i applied at Porche In Norwell.
and i sent out some messages to various appartments looking for roomates in allston/brighton
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[08 Sep 2008|12:02am] |
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Love knows no statelines apparently.
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[06 Sep 2008|08:15am] |
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Friends Only From Here On In.
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[04 Sep 2008|02:34am] |
so i think i got a job in allston at a local body shop whos looking for somone to take on the mechanical end of the repairs.
i also think i may have found a sick appartment. in oak square in brighton
sick.
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[04 Sep 2008|01:59am] |
Trainwreck Express...right here..
Bristol RI
pulled over.
bombed.
58 in a 35.
no registration in the car or bill of sale. because the salesguy forgot.
searched.
questioned.
let go with a 90 dollar ticket for 40 in a 35.
good poker face i guess ??
yeah. not doing that EVER again.
I talked to Ryan/Kenny today, i really need to get a job up in the allston area so i can move up there, were still searching for an appartment too. a 4 bedroom, our last canadate being ether a friend of ryans or maybe Jeremy, who hasnt gotten back to me yet.
V6 Timing Belt today. Yep.
I really hope i get that job in quincy.
Ive been calling everyday.
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[03 Sep 2008|12:50pm] |
its very disheartening to see how things build so quicky, only to desintergrate shortly thierafter.
i really need to leave this place.
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[02 Sep 2008|06:36pm] |
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i would really appreciate a heart attack right about........now.
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[02 Sep 2008|12:09pm] |
Goodbye Massachusetts. Quite Possibly.
Siked on that.
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[02 Sep 2008|06:15am] |
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what a bizzare turn of events tonight/this morning has resulted in...:)
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PBR is delicious.
Im watching About Schmidt
jack nicholson playing a role where hes old and his wife dies and his daughter is marrying a douchebag and hes trying to sort it all out. good flick.
i think the auction is tomorow whch means ill be in seekonk working on shitboxes all day. which is fine, means i can fuckoff all day.
Im exploring two options.
im calling some places in allston for jobs.
i can move up there with Ryan Paradis and Kenny Pineau and 1 more friend.
or
i could take up residence with friends in CT and work at 1 of 2 dealers in the new haven area.
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[01 Sep 2008|05:30pm] |
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I <3 how the whole world is ducking me.
thats fine.
i have more fun by myself anyhow. :)
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[31 Aug 2008|04:14pm] |
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CCL just played the worst, and maybe the last show of our carreer. fuck im embarassed. i blew my voice out. ricky forgot shit etc etc..fuck it.
So far so good with the new car *knock on wood*.
last night me and brock went with a f ew of his NB friends to ghetto night at club hell, it was hilarious.
i drank way way way too much walking around outside and we got in i was so overwealmed with how packed it was i just kinda stood by the wall and drank a beer all night. saw some ppl from highschool.
i really wish i had something positive going on.
i also love when you run into people and there like omfg i havent seen you in forever lets hangout soon
and then they never do.
i have like no friends living near me and i neer leave my appartment aside from food and work.
i need to lose weight, packing on the pounds like its nobodys buissness.
ok im passing out on the keyboard.
im done. :/
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